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And she was perfect...
Not so much as to suggest she had absolutely no imperfections
or flaws. In fact that's what makes her that more interesting.
But she was perfect. Everything that I had pictured
about her, her personality, her looks, her euphoric
attitude and demeanor.. everything was exactly what
I had pictured. After a year of being well acquainted
and picture perfected, I finally met Leena and it was
worth the wait.
So I took a roadtrip by myself to lovely Sacramento.
I didn't come for the scenery or the culture or even
for a small vacation. My only two reasons to go was
to see Leena and to visit my childhood friend Adam whom
just recently graduated from UC Davis with a double
major in Psychology and Sociology. I'm really proud
of him in every sense because we finally did it.
I started the day at 4 in the morn. I couldn't sleep.
All these different thoughts kept running through my
mind and I never really intended to leave that early.
So I brought my laptop, my GBA, some clothes, an Eminem,
2 Now CDs, 2 Janet CDs (Velvet Rope and Janet), and
some Happy Hardcore and I left at about 4:45. 5 hours
later I had arrived, much sooner than I had expected
because I had told Leena I'd be there around 3:00 PM.
So basically I was 5 hours early.
Unfortunately my early arrival caused some problems.
I was supposed to meet Leena at her class at 3. So I
waited. And as frustrating and nerve-racking as it was,
I figured that I waited a whole year to see her, what's
a couple more hours. Believe me though when I say that
those few hours were the slowest to pass in all my life.
And at times I did just want to leave, but I understood
she had some things to do. And then it happened...
I've met people that weren't the person the turned
out to be, I've met people who lied to come meet me,
I've even had people completely fabricate a life. So
in a way I was afraid of meeting Leena. Not so much
that she might be fake, but what if she was real...
 She's
beautiful. In every sense of the word she is BEAUTIFUL.
The kind of beautiful you could stare at for hours on
end. But that's not even close to who she is. When you
can talk to someone endlessly about anything and everything,
you know that's more than a physical attraction. And
when you can smile at everything she did and everything
she said... one could only wonder...
So I waited for her during her dance class. She gave
me the cutest present one could ever get. It was a jar
and inside the jar was about a hundred mini-folded cranes
in every color. Now to all those that don't know me,
this is the perfect gift. I would rather have something
made than something bought. And I know she spent a lot
of time creating it which gave it more value.
After class we went to go eat at the Old Spaghetti
Factory. This dinner was the most unusual but fun dinner
ever. We had staring contests and the waitress was fun
to talk to. By the end of the meal my cheeks hurt from
smiling and laughter.
 We
then stopped at a nearby Walmart to pick up some disposable
cameras. One for each of us and we took pictures all
throughout the time we spent together. This is the first
time I've ever done this during a date and I must admit
that it was a lot of fun.
We then headed out to the Arden Mall in Sacramento.
All throughout our car rides I'd sing to Leena. And
to all those who know me and have ridden in my car know
that I CAN'T sing and I listen to music I like to listen
to. It's funny to imagine anyone singing along to Mmmbop
and Barbie Girl
 .
But I'm in that point in my life where I don't care
what people think about me. I like who I am and I will
always be me.
We walked around the Arden Mall till it closed. Not
that it was all that or anything. We actually have bigger
malls down south. But it was still time spent together
that made it worth it. I took her inside a jewelry store
to take a quick glance at engagement rings to her surprise.
Not that I'd do anything like that on a whim. I just
wanted to know some things
.
In case anything ever happened...
It was getting dark. And so she took me to a place
I'd never thought we'd end up at... her secret place.
We climbed to the top and we sat there to look at the
stars. We saw a star that seemed to move and stop erratically
and randomly which was clearly not a plane. We pointed
out some constellations and then I saw it... Cassiopeia.
I've never actually taken the time to look at the sky
at night and look for it but for some reason I saw it.
This was Serendipity, at least to me it was. Just everything
about those two hours made the trip more than worth
it. And if I could freeze a moment in time this would
be that moment. I just wanted to sit there and listen
and talk to her. Nothing else mattered...
 So
we were about to end the night at a Bowling Alley with
some night bowling. I haven't bowled in years, I think
since my sophomore year in college. We actually had
a great time there. Of course I won both times
.
But I was in fact impressed that she competed with me.
She actually gave me a scare in the second game throwing
strikes left and right.
And the night had come to an end. I've been up for
nearly 24 hours but I didn't care. I didn't want the
night to end. But I knew it had to. I dropped her off
and headed to my place of rest. Once again I couldn't
sleep. All I could think about was the incredible day
we just had.
The next morning came and I had a couple hours to
myself before seeing Leena quite possibly for the last
time of my trip, or maybe even ever. So I sat there
thinking again... about anything and everything...
I picked her up at 4 and I only had 2 more hours
with her before she had other affairs to take care of.
We went to get some Ice Cream from a nearby Thrifty's.
She insist that I try some Pineapple Coconut flavored
ice cream, which is rare to most ice cream shops. I'm
always willing to try new things. So we mixed that in
with my Chocolate Brownie Ice Cream. Not a very good
combination
.
But I thought it was cute that she fed me while I drove.
We then hit up the Florin Mall. We definitely had
to get something for me and her that we could both have.
So we walked around but we actually spent most of our
time sitting down and talking. Time was counting down.
I jokingly asked if she'd want to come home with me,
but in reality, a part of me wanted her with me. But
I didn't want it that easy. And as much as I wanted
to stay longer than I should have, I knew I couldn't
have.
We didn't find anything there. So we went back to
Walmart (which is by the way, one of her favorite stores).
We bought the same picture frame so that we could put
one of the pictures we had taken into it. We sat in
the little eating place inside the store to spend our
last few minutes together there.
 I
didn't want to leave. And as we sat there I held in
tears that might have come out. I tried to keep a cheesy
face. And I knew at any moment I might have said something
stupid or dumb, so I tried to keep quiet. Sometimes
its hard not being able to control the situation knowing
that no matter what you do, life's course would have
still taken place as we play puppets to destiny. And
there was nothing I could do...
So I said good-bye. What might happen in the future...
I don't know. Will I see her anytime soon... I really
hope so. All I know is that I had an incredible day
with a person who's company I truly cherish and I didn't
want to leave it all to chance.
I've always told Leena that she was the type of girl
I should stay away from. I was afraid that I'd get attached
to her once I met her. But I think it happened before
that. I still claim that I'm the only person in the
world that knows me better than me. And I knew this
would happen to me. I sit here now wanting her more
than ever and not being able to do anything about it
tears me apart. She's taken a piece of my heart 400
miles away. And as much as I want her here with me I
know its just not the right time yet. I wish there could
be an "us." But I won't know... not yet... not now...........
What if Leena was the
one... but more importantly... what would I do if she
was...
PHONECAM
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