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Afterwards all that I've waited for had finally arrived...
I've known Thuy since October 14, 2003, but to me
and her it seems much longer. She is my late night phone
calls (3200 minutes on my cell phone
 ),
my peace of mind, my thought after a long day. I had
to meet this girl. So she came down to visit me with
a plane ticket that cost me nothing. I had nothing to
lose and everything to gain... or so I thought...
I really didn't know what to expect. I knew she had
her doubts about me and about my unusual lifestyle.
Maybe because of the fact that I have nothing but tits
and ass on my www.findapix.com
page. She even thought she was just another statistic
to me. But what could I do except let her judge me for
herself. So she took the flight from Dallas...
When I first started talking to Thuy, I had asked
her out on a date. So her trip to Cali was gonna be
our FIRST DATE. A date that would last a whole week,
the time she was gonna spend with me.
I picked her up and met her for the first time. I've
been waiting for this moment with her for so long. I
wanted to meet her so badly because I wanted to know
if she was real. We immediately went to Hollywood to
go clubbing but first we stopped to eat at Denny's.
We ended up in the Knitting Factory where the group
Lexicon had performed. Let me just tell you this girl
can really tear up the dance floor. There were a couple
times where even I felted inexperienced next to her.
But even then I still had tons of fun.
The next day I took her to another one of my dating
spots. The Ontario Mills Outlet. Thuy said that this
place had reminded her of a place in Texas called the
Grapevine Mills that had the same layout and stores.
We went shopping for the whole day and afterwards went
to catch a movie at a nearby Edwards Cinema. We decided
to watch the Last Samurai which was a very good movie.
Kinda like Braveheart in a sense
 .
And this is where it all began... On Monday I had
taken her to a nearby McDonalds where we ordered our
food to go. I then took her to the park where we had
a "fast food" picnic. As odd as that might seem it was
still a memorable moment. We fed and took pictures of
ducks. We walked around and I thought we had so much
fun laughing the day away. We then went to buy some
ingredients to the dinner we were about to cook together.
Afterwards we had a blockbuster night where we watched
and cuddled on the couch
.
The next day was a very good one. My best friend
Adam whom I've now known for officially more than half
my life, had decided to come visit me. So I invited
a couple of old school friends and we all hung out together.
I wanted Thuy to meet some of the people who molded
my life. I also wanted her to meet the guy who was going
to write a dissertation on my behavior and personality
.
We went to the block to preorder our tickets for the
movie The Lord of the the Rings: The Return of the King.
Afterwards we went to go eat out at TGI Fridays to catch
up on some old times.
The next day was an important one. I was about to
show Thuy the last of my worlds, one of my last comfort
zones: Disneyland. I've been here so many times over,
but for whatever reason I never seem to grow tired of
it. I guess its a part of my childhood that I cant seem
to let go of. Everything had gone so far so good. And
then there were fireworks...
Once again I was happy. But how long would this last
for me. Nothing like this would ever work right for
me. This is my Achilles heel, the one aspect that eludes
my satisfaction in life. I'm really happy when I'm with
her, when I'm holding her, when I'm kissing her. Tingle
run up and down my body. Everything that had been building
up to this point finally stuck in my head. I had realized
something important this day...
For the past few months I had been getting to know
someone on a much deeper level. From the first time
I started talking to her I had a feeling she'd be different,
not "different" like every other person out there, but
different... And slowly I was drawn to her. We talked
about everything and nothing for hours on end. I was
to the point that I was afraid of how close she was
getting... even though she's hundreds of miles away.
I wanted so badly to meet her, to see if she was this
person I had gotten to know.
 And
then I met her...
All that I had expected had come true and more. It
went beyond that. If only anyone could really feel my
emotions I'm trying to express through writing. If only
I could write my thoughts. I felt something I haven't
felt in a long time when I was with her. And I tried
my best to tell her, but I had forgotten how hard it
was to do so. For the first time in years, I actually
told someone I loved them...
It's a wonderful feeling. It's the tingles, it's
the goosebumps, it's the thoughts, it's missing and
thinking of that special someone every single moment
in a day. It's doing whatever it takes to do anything
for them. It's the easiest thing to fall into and the
hardest thing to let go. I feel that with her, not an
infatuation, not a moment of lust, but I feel it...
I know I do... and I'm happy...
"What's all
the success in the world if you have no one to share
it with"
I've walked alone for such a long time. I've always
had that missing piece of me. I realize the chances
I'm taking with her. I realize all I have to lose and
everything I could gain. But even then I still choose
this path. Today is Christmas and this year I ask for
nothing more than to be with her...
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